Entry Submitted Anonymously at 12:02 AM EDT on May 18, 2017
For two and a half years I was in service to another SOUL the last nine months of which I was the SOLE (24/7) care provider. We had bad days and good days, tragedy and comic relief. That soul is still with us in the physical form but for now I've been granted respite. I would and will do it all over again if asked too.
The one excellent thing that came from that time period was the opportunity to study. I was able to receive a well balanced BIG PICTURE edu of Spiritual, Historical, Financial, Political and Esoteric subjects. I'm still craving and learning.
The not so great thing about that time was I had to quit working. The above mentioned last nine months I was without an income which was devastating.
That last nine months was when I learned about the RV, GCR, GESARA/NESARA. It was NOT the lack of income that gnawed at me the most. Been there, done it before. We all have. It was WHY? Why would I receive this knowledge if I did not have the funds to purchase the foreign currency? I meditated and prayed. Asked for guidance. The answer I received was ASK THE COMMUNITY! I reached out, The response was "NO SOLICITING".
I felt degraded, inadequate and ashamed.
I've since then received an understanding to the WHY question for my consumption. But have once again been prompted to reach out to the community. There must be a lesson in my story that some of us need.
So here we are. I'm reluctantly and too close to fearfully reaching out again to ask WHY?
Oh and a side note. Even tho we have been given free will. A secondary lesson for me. Is that Creator is not above a rousing game of whack-a-mole to gain our attention and HE/SHE is really good. OUCH!