Dear Veritas, hearing your story is incredibly helpful to me. I must thank you, you didn't have to share that but you did. Honesty with ones self, followed by putting it into practice is the final frontier as far as I'm concerned. Without Grace (and the humility to accept Grace) it just isn't possible. Equally true, as you've said, there is nothing He can't lead us through. Really liking one's self is amazing! So worth every hardship.
Well, I posted something a few days back when Yosef, Tank and I think maybe you suggested we call HBSC. I do think it was a mistake to jump the gun like that and an acknowledgment of that seems appropriate, even to maintain trust. I'm not sure if that's what you mean by bitterness which is not helpful.
Speaking frankly about what seems off vs. remaining silent is something that I'm constantly weighing and trying to determine what's really helpful. Maybe there are others who struggle with the same thing, and surely we will need good impulse control once wealth has amplified our voices. Please don't let me take too much of your attention, but if you can find the time, I'd appreciate the feedback. I'll consider it carefully.
I will remember what you said about homelessness and what it feels like not to be able to feed ones children.