Entry Submitted by J. at 3:07 PM EDT on October 3, 2016
Again today a challenge arises. On what will I place my attention and energies? For sure it is another opportunity to be aware of what is occurring in my body, and what emotions and concomitant thought patterns surface as a result of perceived disappointment.
What test might this be, if it is one? Is it test of tenacity, temperance, stamina, or just plain Grit?
Or, am I given the opportunity, again, to be more aware of my own Humanity in a more sensate and visceral manner? Anticipation, in the case of the role out of these current redemption possibilities, can be an elixir so intoxicating, so baffling and cunning, that if unchecked, can lead to an unbridled detour into fear.
I know that today, like any other day of my life, is for LOVE. Am I living and breathing a life of Love? Even to just expand my capacity and understanding of Love, is an act of Love. I believe I am here to fundamentally learn and live the lesson and reality of Love--regardless of what is going on around me. Actually, RV or no RV, I am still charged with learning the lessons of Love, growing-up as a Human Being, evolving, and being as loving and jubilant as I can be.
I can be guided by, and have Faith in, what is Good and Divine and what is True and Beautiful. These are the big-boy and big-girl lessons, and they are not found by pumping others for answers.
Disappointment and unfulfilled expectations are part and parcel of life on Earth. It happens. Okay, so this day, now, this moment, I am alive and have all I have created and have been graced with. All possibilities and potentials, live and breathe from this very moment; this breath of Life. I cannot know what blessings are waiting before hand. To have chosen a path of abundant giving and service to our planet, and all it's creatures, is supremely splendid in every way. Much fulfillment and joy will follow. However, I cannot force God's Grace.
Gratitude and deep appreciation preclude forlorn despondency, chronic disappointment, and fear. Hopelessness, anger, and depression can be transmuted into Love. They are not done away with, or overcome; they are converted into Love!
It starts with me. I am the one to do it! Be patient and Love myself. That is what I am really wanting; to exist in that space--True Love of Self and Others--a greater experience of my own Divinity.
Because whomever I am Being today, and have been intending to be, and the consciousness thereof I have practiced habitually, is who I will bring into this RV situation. My redemption will be infused with that energy.
Create a sacred space, every moment of the day if need be, and dwell there. That is what Humanity is charged with especially now, as it has always been the case. The missing Peace I seek is as close as my next breath. I can create it whenever I want.
Be Big, Be Strong, Be Bold and know your own Divinity. Trust. Exist in Love, Strength, and Clarity.